There is something about summer. Something in us that needs longer days and slower nights. Something that needs the spontaneity that was put on hold for the rest of the year but is made room for in the summer. Something in us that needs to pause, reflect, let chirping crickets and birds that have come out of hiding interrupt our conversations.
To truly experience summer is to press the pause button on life.
I press the pause button and neighbors walking past our house step inside our gate, able to sit and rest after a weary day at work. I press the pause button and feel the freedom to let things go, realizing chores will always be around but summer won’t. I press the pause button, because if I don’t the journey will be too much for me.
Recently I was rereading one of my old journals. I am a prolific journal writer and God forbid that these journals be found when I die! First order of business for those who love me will be to burn them and then eulogize me. But I digress. As I was reading, I happened on an entry from a couple of years ago in June. I was weary. My journal told a story of grief and exhaustion. In the middle of this I had quoted the beautiful verses from the Old Testament story of Elijah running for his life to escape a wicked queen. He runs for an entire day, finally collapsing under the weight of exhaustion, fear, and discouragement. He sits down under a desert tree and prays that he will die. “I’ve had enough, Lord,” he says. “Take my life…!” and then he falls asleep. We aren’t told how long he sleeps, but at one point an angel touches him, and he wakes to find food and water beside him. He eats, drinks, and falls asleep again. The second time the angel touches him and says some of the most beautiful words that someone exhausted by life could ever hear: “Get up and eat, for the journey is too much for you.”*[1 Kings 19]
The tenderness and humanity in that statement are profound. Stop. Press the pause button. Eat. Let your body be nourished because the journey is too much for you. In my journal I followed the words from scripture with my own: “When the journey is too much for me – I pause, I breathe, I rest, I eat.”
Often, I think that our own and other people’s exhaustion scares us. We want to make sure they will be able to continue to function. We want to give them a motivational speech on how they need to keep going, how trials and adversity will make them stronger, urging them to stay the course when the going is tough and rough. There is indeed a place for that but what if we began with food and rest, with compassion and acknowledgement that sometimes our journeys in this life are too much for us? What if we started with the pause button?
No one needs to stay on pause forever. In truth, this would be boring and annoying. But there are times when the pause button is God offering us a chance to rest and be revived, recognizing that we are flesh and blood, that our bodies and souls are not foreign to each other, rather one affects the other and have done so since creation.
Two years ago, I needed summer and my journal as reminders to press the pause button. I needed someone to say “Stop, breathe, have something to eat, rest – for the journey is too much for you.”
May your summer be a time to press the pause button, to rest, to eat. Otherwise, the journey may be too much for you.