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A Mom’s Gifts

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Walking along Boston Harbor today, I was struck by the beauty all around me. While the day dawned gloomy and chilly, by noon the sky was the blue of a clear spring day and blossoms and buds had appeared like magic. It reminded me of the children’s book The Secret Garden and the description of springtime.

“Fair fresh leaves, and buds—and buds—tiny at first but swelling and working Magic until they burst and uncurled into cups of scent delicately spilling themselves over their brims and filling the garden air.”

The Secret Garden

It’s been six months since my mom died and I’ve been thinking a lot about her these past few days. Tomorrow is Mother’s Day, and it will be my first Mother’s Day where my mom is not present on this earth. I am well aware that in the natural order of things, every person gets to a point where their mothers are no longer present. I am not alone in this. In fact, I am one of those too fortunate people who had their mom for many, many years.

And I also feel the loss acutely. Last year I was recovering from major surgery, so I was unable to go be with her for Mother’s Day. Had I known that she would be gone, would I have cancelled the surgery? I don’t know that I would. I had cancelled it once before and I really couldn’t hold off anymore. I think my mom knew this and gave me the grace I needed.

Memories of previous mother’s days and other holidays, but mostly the visits I had with her where it was just the two of us on a regular weekend loom large and precious. We would go to Lake Ontario and have picnics of egg or tuna salad on fresh bread, always buying Abbot’s frozen custard on the way home. I would read aloud from either a book my brother had begun reading to her, or we would begin a new one. Some of her favorites were books by her friends from Pakistan, her eyes sparkling as she filled in details from her own memories of events relayed in these books. Her routine was to get up much later than I would in the morning so I would fix myself a cup of tea and then have breakfast with her when she got up. Parathas and spicy eggs were a favorite from her Pakistani past, but as time went on, a simple piece of toast or an English muffin was all she could eat.

In the months before she died, it was more difficult for her to get up and get going. Our times included a lot more staying inside with reading, resting, and stories. Audio books were a plenty and I will never be able to listen to Maisie Dobbs books on audio again without thinking of my mom on her recliner, eyes open, mind alert, body tired. Sometimes she would doze off and I would gently wake her to see if she wanted to head to her bed for an afternoon nap. “I should, shouldn’t I?” she would reply, only to doze off again one or two times before going. In between all of this, I heard stories of childhood and beyond. I was taken back to her elementary years, to an older girl Evangeline walking her home from school and laughing and scolding her for having the lofty dream of attending college. “Oh Pauline! What makes you think you can go to college? Your mom and dad never finished eighth grade!” Scarlet, more from the anger that erupted in her than Evangeline’s chiding, she vowed that she’d show Evangeline! And she did.

The stories moved on from childhood to college in Boston, a city she loved dearly, friendships with roommates Maggie and Ruthie, and falling in love with my father. What a gift to those who are older that they get to fall in love again and again through their memories, reliving the joys of those initial days like they were yesterday. Mom and Dad’s love story took place in the city of Boston where, poor as the proverbial mice that roam around churches in search of morsels, they bought five cent coffees and an occasional coke float. While I had heard many of the stories before, there were new ones that emerged, while the old ones were the more precious knowing that the storyteller would soon be leaving us, leaving me.

And the storyteller did leave. She left in the late fall when the golden leaves were creating heavy earth carpets, and the smell of wood fires was in the air. Now it is the spring and I miss her. I miss the almost daily phone calls that were sometimes check-ins and other times heavy with conversation and memories. We loved talking to each other about books – those that she was listening to and others that I was reading. I miss knowing that when I got back from a trip, she would be waiting to talk with me, to ask about it. I miss having her ask me about my kids. “How is Joel?” she would say, and I knew she really cared.

Despite the missing, I would not bring her back for an instant. She is in Aslan’s country, further up and further in, and it would be cruel to bring her back from glory to a place with only glimpses.

In truth, Mom left me with many lasting gifts that I hold on to tight with hopes that I can one day pass on the same – the gift of an enduring faith lived out in stubborn persistence, the gifts of reading and writing, the gifts of delving deeply into the scriptures and daily prayer, the gifts of learning when to speak up and when to keep silent. Most of all, the life-long example of a mom who knew how to love well.

On this Mother’s Day, I reflect on these gifts with a healthy mixture of tears, wistful longing, and gratitude. Though her presence is gone, the gifts remain, and I am deeply grateful. Honoring her is about entering wholeheartedly into the day with laughter, love, tea, and cake, expressing love and thanks to those around me and those at a distance.

I wonder as I write this – what gifts have you received from your mom? Whether alive or no longer here, what do you hold precious because of her?

Great and Holy Friday

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In his book Disappointment with God, author Philip Yancey, tells a poignant story about a boy who shot his father. When he was taken to a residential facility and asked why he did it, he responded that he hated his father, he wanted his father dead. Later that evening as a staff member was walking down the hallway monitoring the deeply troubled and wounded kids who were there, he heard the boy crying “I miss my father. I want my father.”

It’s this story that I think about on this day of Great and Holy Friday because the boy is me. I continually do things that kill the character of God, that wound his righteousness. I sometimes want him out of my life, blame him as the cause of all suffering. But in the dark and quiet of the night, I too can be heard crying. “I miss my father. I want my father.”

Today around the world, from Palestine to Alaska, Orthodox Christians are gathering – many in the midst of unquantifiable suffering – to commemorate the death of Christ on the cross. In doing this we remember the ultimate act of love and sacrifice and will ourselves to pause for a moment; pause to remember the most horrific death imaginable. Pause to remember the suffering of Christ. We pause to remember and as we do, we recognize yet again that suffering is not meaningless but is met by a God who sits with us in our pain. Sometimes he whispers comfort, sometimes he is silent, but his presence is a reality that I will believe throughout my life.

There is much pain I am feeling these days. I find it difficult to read any news, more difficult still to comprehend the depth of suffering and pain present, particularly in mothers who have buried a child even as they watch another child suffer from malnutrition and lack of medical care. It is too big for me to bear. And I cry before God and his holy mother, knowing that on that day so long ago, a sword pierced her soul. That’s where I will sit today, at the foot of the cross, with Mary, the mother of God, and I will weep even as I rest in the “vast mystery of God, the surety of God’s power, the reassurance of God’s goodness.”

Today He who hung the earth upon the waters is hung upon the Cross. He who is King of the angels is arrayed in a crown of thorns. He who wraps the heavens in clouds is wrapped in the purple of mockery. He who in Jordan set Adam free receives blows upon His face. The Bridegroom of the Church is transfixed with nails. The Son of the Virgin is pierced with a spear. We venerate Thy Passion, O Christ. Show us also Thy glorious Resurrection.

From Matins of Holy Friday

When I’m 64

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Would you indulge me as I reflect and cry a little in this space?

I turn 64 tomorrow. Depending on where you live in the world, it means I’ve either far exceeded the life expectancy, or I have many years to go. Either way, I’m feeling and thinking about many things.

I think it began this morning as I listened to beloved children’s musician Raffi sing “Everything Grows and Grows.” 

Everything grows and grows
Babies do, animals too
Everything grows
Everything grows and grows
Sisters do, brothers too
Everything grows

This song is one of my favorites and as I was listening to it the tears came unbidden, and I let them. I had just finished scheduling some medical appointments online and my body’s frailty despite fairly good health was on my mind. We are immortal beings living in mortal bodies – bodies that face all sorts of indecencies and difficulties. From ingrown toenails to brain tumors, we groan and sometimes lose hope. At 64, the “to do” list on our electronic medical charts gets longer and makes us face reality – our bodies are aging. With this, we know we have some decisions to make, and a number of those have to do with acceptance and attitude. I don’t want to be someone who gives everyone around me an “organ recital” as I age. I don’t want to hate my body or blame the God who created me, and yet I see how easily it may be to go down that dangerous path.

I want to accept my 64 years and what they have brought and taught me with joy, gratitude, and a healthy dose of humor. Because let’s face it – the aging body and process can be funny. Perhaps the funniest is that you see yourself as 24 and all your 64-year-old friends as – well, maybe 84. You can’t believe how much they’ve aged! You pat yourself on the back and then you catch a reflected version of yourself in the blackout windows of the car and you clutch your heart thinking “I thought Grandma K was dead! What’s she doing in my car?!” You think about how you should maybe take an exercise class, get rid of some of those unsightly bulges – and then you think “Nah! I look pretty good. Pass the cinnamon roll.”

Getting older is almost like changing species, from cute middle-aged, white-tailed deer, to yak. We are both grass eaters, but that’s about the only similarity. At the Safeway sushi bar during lunchtime, I look at the teenage girls in their crop tops with their stupid flat tummies and I feel bad about what lies beneath my big, forgiving shirts but — and this is one of the blessings of aging — not for long.

Ann Lamott as quoted in The Washington Post

The physical piece is just the beginning. The harder piece is emotional, for in a society that loves beauty and youth, it is easy to feel irrelevant. It comes through subtly and consistently. Unless you’re famous, like Ann Lamott, your life experience, earned fact as it were, is not seen as important or relevant to our fast-paced world. When at a public event, you can see the eyes of younger people look over or through you. There are surely more interesting people in the room to talk to. You want to connect with people, but do they want to connect with you?

Ready to inhale a massive dose of self-pity, you suddenly stop yourself and think: Hold on! It isn’t about me. Life just isn’t. It’s about something so much bigger, better, and more lasting. It’s about loving well the generations that will follow me. It’s about making sure they know that they are beloved, that they are precious. It’s about showing grace even when faced with those who are not gracious. It is about forgiving when you feel misunderstood and hurt, about forgiving when you are not being forgiven.

What do I want 64 to look like beyond medical appointments and fear? Beyond irrelevance and unsightly bulges?

I want it to be a year of peace and joy, of smiling at the future. I want to invest in my kids and my grandkids – another coming our way in May. I want to love them with abandon. I want to see more of my girlfriends, to go out to breakfast and right the world. At our age, we should be able to. I want to learn how to decorate cakes and become a better communicator. I want to write words that are full of life and grace, that point the reader to something bigger and better than me. I want to walk through crowded bazaars in places I love and drink coffee in unexpected coffee shops. I want to go to a Bollywood exercise class and laugh at my mistakes. I want to love others well. I want to grow more compassionate and meet the unexpected hard things without fear. I want to honor the struggle – mine and others. Most of all, I want others to see the God I love, to witness his work and love his world.

64. It’s a lot of me and a lot of life. Will you journey with me on this? I sure hope so!

Hungry and Expectant

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We just returned from a trip to South Carolina by way of Virginia. Virginia was a business stop, while South Carolina was a stop to celebrate a friend’s wedding. Anthony Bourdain in one of his many quotes on travel said one time: “I know that I will never understand the world I live in or fully know the places I’ve been. I’ve learned for sure only what I don’t know—and how much I have to learn.” This proves true time and time over. I’ve traveled to the southern states many times before this, but I was struck once more by how vast the differences are between north and south. From food to accents to attitudes and more, there are distinct regional differences. Many are relatable and wonderful while others were more difficult to comprehend. Southerners traveling to New England states must feel much the same. It made me realize that it is a marvel that we all exist as well as we do.

Along with being struck by the cultural differences was the wonder of all the beauty and space that we saw as we traveled. From deep forests, to rivers, to gorges, to lakes, to the Smokey Mountains there is loveliness to behold.

Our stay for the wedding was at a small cottage connected to a house on Lake Murray in Gilbert, South Carolina. The lake is a massive 41 miles long, 14 miles wide at the widest point and boasts around 650 miles of shoreline. Though its main purpose is to provide hydroelectric power to South Carolina, it also provides beauty, recreation, and wondrous sunsets for us humans.

On the morning of the wedding, my husband called me to look at a bird’s nest just outside the doorway built against a pole below the roof. Three baby robins were nestled within, aware that non-robins were close. Once they realized they were safe they popped tiny heads out of the nest with mouths wide open, ready for a mommy robin to return. Nearby we saw the mom with her distinctive red breast earnestly searching for worms, zealous in her robin way to provide nurturing and nourishment.

I was deeply moved by these baby robins. The baby birds were hungry, expectant, hopeful, and longing for her return. Their bird bodies and mouths demonstrated their need without reservation. It was instinct. They knew what they wanted, knew what they were waiting for. And they also knew it would come.

I want to be like that with my faith. I want to hunger, expect, hope, and long for the rich feast that my creator has prepared for me. A feast of nature and the Word, of the Church and the Eucharist, of the wisdom of friends who walk the same journey and saints who have journeyed before me.

In truth, I have been too busy, too distracted, and too many other adjectives to dwell in or partake of any of those feasts. Though I say I long for it, do I really? Do I sit in my own nest waiting expectantly for the life-giving feast that only God can provide?

Seeing the baby birds made me aware of what I am missing in my busy, distracted life and carries me back to the basics. Those basics of sitting like a baby bird, mouth open in expectation and longing, knowing that the one who is zealous for my nourishment in the faith is right there offering me what I need.

So, on this Saturday, as deep summer speeds along far too quickly, I offer a simple prayer: “God – help us to be like baby robins, mouths wide open, hungry, expectant, hopeful, and longing for what only you can offer.”

A Waiting Sea

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Over the long weekend we went to our beloved cottage in Rockport. While most holiday weekends provide us with rest and joy by the sea, this weekend was a work weekend. We have needed to do some renovations to our cottage for some time, and finally made the decision to move forward. Despite our own frequent moves and life changes, or maybe because of them, we were always dragging our feet about changing things in the cottage.

On the same week that I had major surgery, a contractor started in on the cottage, taking the pictures in our heads, and moving those pictures into three dimensional changes. We had not seen the result until this weekend. Instead of going to examine colors, textures, and concrete things like paint, sinks, tiles, and toilets, I boldly picked out everything online. I’m not usually that bold, but it was either that or wait a long time for the contractor to be free to do the work.

The results are beautiful. Creativity and craftsmanship went into every detail, and we are so pleased. Along with the pleasure came the chaos of renovation. Every picture off the wall, every item out of closets, and a layer of paint dust from floor to ceiling awaited us, threatening to overwhelm.

So, the weekend was a lot of hard physical labor, little rest, and no thought that just around the bend was the ocean in all her beauty.

It was the final day that we took a walk to sit by the sea. The sea had been there the entire time, barely a block away, but we didn’t see it. We worked while the sea waited for us.

The day could not have been more beautiful. A slight breeze, bright sun, the deep blue of the ocean and the glorious colors of spring merged together, the perfect setting. It was a moment I wanted to capture even as I knew that there is no way the one-dimensional picture would ever do justice to all I saw and felt. The exhaustion of physical labor, emotional and physical healing, and all around chaos of life broke, like the waves we watched breaking over the rocks.

We go about our busy, fractured lives and all the while nature waits for us, longing to bring us in to calm serenity. We clean, we gossip, we travel across worlds, we work, we work some more, we grow weary, we complain, we stress, we gossip more, we grow resentful, we yell at each other in various ways and on various platforms, we self-righteously judge others, we forget to be curious, we grieve and then pick ourselves back up, we age, our bodies hurt us, our families and friends annoy us – and all the while, the sea is waiting.

Waiting with its beauty, its reminders that long after we leave, it will still be there. Waiting with memories, waiting with solace, waiting – not necessarily with answers – but with peace that we may never find answers. Waiting as God waits – with patient persistence, always there when we finally arrive, exhausted, at its shores.

Chocolates, Flowers, Crutches

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I had major surgery yesterday. It has been a long time coming, cancelled initially because of Covid-19 and other family illness, and finally after frantic messages to my surgeon about my pain level, I had a date.

With the date scheduled and all pre-appointments completed, at an early hour yesterday, my husband drove me to the hospital. I was registered, questioned, tested, given meds, and given an intravenous line with outstanding efficiency, and the next thing I know, I woke up. Surgery was finished, textbook like in its rapidity and lack of any complications. I have to remind myself that 12 hours of preop, surgery, and recovery time is actually efficient.

I arrived home evening of the same day – not a usual occurrence, but so welcome for me. As I sat in the house, I felt an overwhelming sense of sadness. My mortality and dependence were right in front of me. It was both sad and beautiful. The chocolates from my neighbor Chase, who I joke roams the neighborhood looking for someone to bother, fresh lilacs from a neighbor who clipped them from her lilac bush that is in full bloom, and my crutches – my sure companion in the coming weeks of healing. They are reminders that right now, I need help for everything. My two hands are used on crutches and one of my legs is not in service. It is a humbling place to land, yet all of us at some point will be in similar positions.

It’s funny, isn’t it? The way we go through events that feel monumental to us, but others continue in their days, blissfully unaware of births and deaths, of surgeries and tragedies, of family shaking traumas and blinding insights. And of course, we are the same. When things are going at a “normal” pace with work and family, when pain is not ever present, when our lives have not been disrupted by any of the things above, we are the same with others. Though we may show empathy and compassion in the moment, none of us has the capacity to bear constant witness to the ongoing joys and pains of strangers.

As I think about my homecoming last night, I think that is what hit me. That it was a big thing for me, and I am too fortunate in being surrounded virtually and physically by people who care about me, but for others it is like any other day. My sadness came and tears flowed from a place of shared humanity, for the millions of us who had something momentous happen yesterday and are facing the aftermath today – whether others knew it or not.

I wish I could sit with others in this space, and we could swap stories of chocolates, flowers, and crutches, wish that I could know what physical signs they had that made them aware of their dependence, their need, their humanity. Yet even as I say this, I know that not being able to is a gift. These are the places where God dwells and speaks into the pain and into the healing. In creative ways, he urges people who surround those of us with needs to step up, to bear witness. Not to everyone, but to the people in our neighborhoods and churches, in our schools and in our work. The best thing I can do during this season of healing is to lean into this, the God of the universe who cares as much about individuals as he does about the nations.

My first step in leaning in is gratitude for chocolates, flowers, and crutches – all symbols of healing, friendship, and interdependence.

If you are in the place I am in today, for whatever reason, may you feel the abundance of these things and may we be surprised and delighted by the presence of God.

When You’re in the Middle of the Story – and You Want to Know the End

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Several years ago I was in the middle of a riveting book. Every time I had a spare moment I would pick up the book and continue reading. My husband was traveling and so after I got my five children settled for the night, I got into my own bed and continued reading. The night got later and later as the book took on more and more suspense. I suddenly looked at the clock and it was three o’clock in the morning. I was stunned, but also faced with a dilemma: Do I go to bed? Do I keep on reading? Or….and this will stun many of you….do I skip forward and read the end?

Knowing that I may disappoint you, I will not tell you what I did. The bigger point is that sometimes we’re in the middle of the story, and we desperately want to know the end. Will the protagonist’s longing be fulfilled? Will the boy find the girl? Will the child be rescued? Will the villain be caught? This is what makes The Princess Bride such a delighful and longstanding movie favorite. Princess Buttercup, Wesley, the Villain, the Giant, Inigo Montoya….it’s all there and it is deeply satisfying because we get to see the end. Wesley’s words to Princess Buttercup “Death cannot stop true love. All it can do is delay it for a while.” stay with us even after watching countless other movies.

The stories each of us live, sometimes caught up with the story of another, are a bit more complicated. We don’t always know the ending. We pray for healing only to watch someone die of cancer. We pray for peace only to see war after war after war. We pray for courage only to see ourselves cower in the moments that we most want to be brave. We pray for understanding only to be crushed by the weight of misunderstanding. We pray that we will have faith to believe in something bigger than ourselves only to doubt everytime life gets difficult. We pray for unity in churches and families only to watch as chasms grow in both. We long for a good ending, but in the dark of night we wonder “How will it all end?”

This week it is Palm Sunday in my faith tradition. Palm Sunday was an amazing story. It is the hero riding into Jerusalem. Right there in the middle of palm branches and shouts of “Hosanna!” is a story of hope and joy. Things will change! Here he comes! We’ve watched what he can do and he will make everything right.

But a few days later, the unbelievable happened and all hopes were gone in a moment. A moment of denial, a moment of a mother’s tears, a moment of fear. They thought that this was the end of the story.

But it wasn’t. It was the middle of the story and it felt like the end.

We are much like that. It’s easy to feel despair, to sit in the middle of the story thinking it is the end. Because in this Christian faith, a faith that I describe as my oxygen, the Story is not yet over. It is ultimately a love story that continues to call us into believing the impossible, to hope in the unseen, and to live in the light of a bigger reality. It calls us follow that great cloud of witnesses that went before, It whispers in the night, and shouts in the daylight that there is more and that it matters.

As for faith and the middle of the story? I so often want to skip to the end, to forget the pages inbetween. To get resolution and redemption without all the pain that goes along with it. Here is the truth: Sometimes I believe, sometimes I doubt, always I pray “Help my unbelief.” Sometimes I love God and people, sometimes I do not; always I pray “Teach me to love more and judge less.” Sometimes I believe the story is not yet over, other times I believe that it has ended, that what I see is all there is; always I pray:

Help me to remember that the story is not over, that the story I see with limited vision continually points to a bigger story with an absolutely astonishing ending.

And since ultimately this Christian story is a love story, perhaps I too would do well to remember the words of Wesley in The Princess Bride “Death cannot stop true love. All it can do is delay it for a while.”

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For Your Aching Heart – On Blessing & Beauty

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It’s been a week. I heard of the death of Dr. Paul Farmer at the beginning of the week and the news of the invasion of Ukraine at the end. This did not include my own struggles and sorrows, made seemingly more difficult in the winter season. A conflict with a hospital, a work struggle, and feeling dismissed at multiple levels had me talking through tears in the presence of a gifted counselor.

I know what most of us are seeing. We are scrolling through news and social media where yellow and blue colors light up our feed. Many of us are oceans and continents away from conflict, yet we feel the heavy weight of invading injustice.

It was not so long ago when our world posted the same messages for Afghanistan; when feeds filled with the Afghan flag and images of fleeing Afghans. And yet, and I think it’s important to remember this, soon the crisis died for most.

It is good to be aware of world events. It is good to be willing to take on prayer for nations and leaders. Yet, there’s a real danger to this kind of emotion derailing us and taking us away from what is in our midst, for giving us license to ignore those things that we do have some control over. Might I suggest that it’s easier for us to post passionate prayers for a country far away than it is for us to love our neighbor with different political views? It was certainly easier for me to bemoan the evil of a world leader than confess the darkness in my own heart that led to yelling at both a nurse and a doctor. And yet, truly respecting their work and loving them is a small but significant step toward peace-building.

In the midst of a broken world’s chaos and turmoil, I continue to believe that one of the best antidotes is seeking blessing and beauty.

A volume of John O’Donohue’s To Bless the Space Between Us sits on the bedside stand in our guest room. I looked at the book this morning in an effort to clear my mind and seek poetic words of beauty. In a passage on page 215, there is a section called “Blessing our World Now.”

“Sometimes when we look out, the world seems so dark. War, violence, hunger, and misery seem to abound. This makes us anxious and helpless. What can I do in my private little corner of life that could have any effect on the march of world events. The usual answer is: nothing….yet the world is not decided by action alone. It is decided more by consciousness and spirit; they are the secret sources of all action and behavior….When you give in to helplessness, you collude with despair and add to it. When you take back your power and choose to see possibilities for healing and transformation, your creativity awakens and flows to become an active force of renewal and encouragement in the world. In this way, even in your own hidden life, you can become a powerful agent of transformation in a broken, darkened world.”

As I read and reflected on this I began to think of images of healing and transformation, of blessing and beauty.

The image of Ukrainians gathered on their knees on the snow covered ground, in prayer for safety and peace; a gifted physician taking the time to hear my anger and walk me into greater understanding and resolution; a cardinal in a snow covered tree; facilitating a retreat with staff who work all day with those at the farthest margins of our city; talking through what helps give us perspective with a colleague; laughing with a friend; and facing my own weakness with an eye toward the One who is strong. All of these are compelling pieces of blessing and beauty.

I don’t know what chaos holds your heart today, but I do know that living in the chaos of despair never adds to world peace. I know, because I’ve tried it. Just as blood, tired from traveling through our bodies arrives back into the heart to be replenished with oxygen and go back again, so do our heart’s emotions need to be replenished with hope, beauty, and blessing. When our hearts are heavy with grief it is difficult to see beyond the grief. It takes courage to step out of despair and connect with the life around us, the life we’ve been given, willing to be filled with the oxygen of beauty and blessing.

If your heart and soul are weary and in despair, I offer you the antidotes of blessing and beauty.

Prayer for Equilibrium

Like the joy of the sea coming home to shore, May the relief of laughter rinse through your soul.

As the wind loves to call things to dance, May your gravity be lightened by grace.

Like the dignity of moonlight restoring the earth, May your thoughts incline with reverence and respect.

May your prayer of listening deepen enough, To hear in the depths the laughter of God.

Verses from The Space Between Us

Prayer for Ukraine and our world from Psalm 46 and words from my nephew:

“Offering prayer in the midst of chaos can seem trivial and unhelpful. I get sick of calls for thoughts and prayers when what’s needed is action. Yet today I woke up to this image…Ukrainians gathering outdoors in February (!) to pray, even as the shells begin to fly. I’m reminded of the solidarity that prayer gives us, both with one another, as well as with the One who put the stars in the sky, yet knows us by name. I’m reminded that prayer is far from trivial. I will pray for the people of Ukraine, as well as for those around the world whose actions may be helpful toward ending this. May they know courage, and may we find the courage to support them.”

“He makes wars cease
    to the ends of the earth.
He breaks the bow  and shatters the spear;
    he burns the shields with fire.
He says, “Be still, and know that I am God;
    I will be exalted among the nations,
    I will be exalted in the earth.”

The Lord Almighty is with us;
the God of Jacob is our fortress.” -Psalm 46

Today, may your heart be strengthened through blessing and beauty.