Series on Suffering #8 – A Pause

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Suffering: A Pause by Robynn. Click here to read more posts by Robynn.

I’m pushing pause on the series on suffering today.

This past weekend my dad was admitted to hospital in excruciating pain. He was given generous doses of narcotics to help bring him some relief. Xrays and CAT scans revealed three large kidney stones, one lodged in the ureter. It was determined that surgery was the best option. During surgery the doctor made every effort to remove the three stones but was unsuccessful. He was able to crush the three stones into considerably smaller pieces and prescribed medication that would hopefully dissolve the stones.

This weekend a dear friend of mine discovered painful news about one of her children. It left her reeling and angry. Later in the weekend her child tried to end his life. They ended up in the hospital too.

Yesterday late afternoon I received word that my dad was rushed back to the Emergency Room. His pain was once again out of control. He was also experiencing disturbing psychotic episodes. The nurse practitioner at the doctor’s office suspected a septic infection. The doctors at the ER began treatment for that but they think a morphine withdrawal is at work.

Meanwhile his shingles, that he had this summer, flared up again. He is suffering on every side.

My friend and her pain wracked family are trying to re-establish routines. How do they parent past this? They are numb and worn thin. Children still need to be dropped off at school. Supper needs to be cooked. Jobs, appointments, obligations on the calendar need to be attended to.

I can’t write on suffering today. I’m grieving with my friends. I’m worried for my dad. The suffering is too deep. Words today would sound hollow. They’d echo back at me. Today is a day for pause. It’s a day for prayer. It’s a day for pleading for mercy. Today I wrap my friend and my dad in gauze-prayers, gently spiraling around them, praying for protection and comfort and gentleness. I pray for healing for bodies marred by pain and hearts that are crushed like kidney stones. I pray for restoration for bruised souls and broken bodies. Tears run down my face. I wish I could do something.

There’s an old story where four men bring their paralyzed friend to Jesus. They carry him on a bed. When they get to the place where Jesus had been staying they realize they aren’t going to be able to get close to Jesus. There are too many other people there. It’s too crowded. They lug him up onto the roof, place him down, and start removing tiles or thatch or whatever the roofing materials were between them and the Healer. They eventually make a hole big enough to lower their friend down, still on his bed, right in front of Jesus. Long story short– Jesus looks up at the faith-filled faces of the friends peering down through the roof-hole, and then back at the man immovable on his bed, and he heals the man. The friends really believed that if they could just get their friend to this Divine Healer their friend stood a chance. Jesus recognized that faith in them and in response healed the paralyzed man.

And this is the something I can do. Today I’m bringing my dad and my friend to Jesus. Both have reached the end. Both have endured long past their capacities. They can’t bear any more hurting. They can’t handle any more suffering. Their pain has paralyzed them. I’m dragging them to the roof and I’m digging a hole. I’m lowering them down to Jesus. Because I still do believe that if I can just place them in front of Jesus they stand a chance of being healed.

Today I pause to pray. Dragging, lugging, lowering, pleading prayers.

Picture Credit: word art by Marilyn R. Gardner

9 thoughts on “Series on Suffering #8 – A Pause

  1. Ah, I see now why you haven’t responded to my email.  I will pray too, and most especially I will pray for you and your health and God’s will in this trip to TurkeyWith lovePPaula

    From: Communicating.Across.Boundaries To: Sent: Wednesday, October 29, 2014 10:09 AM Subject: [New post] Series on Suffering #8 – A Pause #yiv1073769520 a:hover {color:red;}#yiv1073769520 a {text-decoration:none;color:#0088cc;}#yiv1073769520 a.yiv1073769520primaryactionlink:link, #yiv1073769520 a.yiv1073769520primaryactionlink:visited {background-color:#2585B2;color:#fff;}#yiv1073769520 a.yiv1073769520primaryactionlink:hover, #yiv1073769520 a.yiv1073769520primaryactionlink:active {background-color:#11729E;color:#fff;}#yiv1073769520 | Marilyn posted: “Suffering: A Pause by Robynn. Click here to read more posts by Robynn.I’m pushing pause on the series on suffering today.This past weekend my dad was admitted to hospital in excruciating pain. He was given generous doses of narcotics to help b” | |


  2. Praying with you Robynn. That story of the four friends had been on my mind a lot. This week we heard about a family who have lost 3 grandparents in the matter of a month, a young fit mum who dropped dead unexpectedly at the age of 32 and a girl who was due for a brain op who had to go to emergency for a terrible blister in her mouth that swelled half her face and whose boyfriend died in a car crash on the way to see her in the hospital. Our minds reel. My hope sank like Peter when he stepped out of the boat. I was reminded that Jesus is the hope of the world and he lives in us. We carry him to people who have no hope left. What am amazing privilege!


  3. Dear Robynn, I am so sorry. Praying the powerful, gentle, loving presence of Jesus with your Dad, and your Mom, also with your friend and her family.


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