I knew there had been offense. I had said things. I had done things. And I was sorry. I was so sorry – for the hurt, for my mouth running away without consulting my brain, for my meanness, born out of my pain. The person had done nothing to warrant my rage. They just happened to be the one present when I lost it.
“Against you and you only have I sinned and done what is wrong in your sight” The words of Psalm 51 echoed in my head. “Against against against you you you only only only” – as though I was yelling across a mountain, the valley between. The realization echoed as well – I had sinned against God – and I had also wronged another.
I needed Abigail’s bread.
The story of Abigail’s bread is from the Old Testament. Abigail was first the wife of Nabal, a mean and surly man we are told. She was intelligent and beautiful and when she saw there had been an offense toward a group of men, she acted. She prepared bread, wine, sheep, grain, figs, raisins – a regular feast, and she set off to make it right. She didn’t know how she would be received but compelled to go, she went in faith.
So I baked bread and set off. Nervous, stomach aching, heart pounding, not sure how I would be received. But there had been offense and I needed to make it right. I didn’t have the wine or the sheep, the figs or the raisins, but I had bread.
And God graciously softened the heart of the offended and the bread was accepted.
This story in the Old Testament is amazing. It is a story of a strong woman, a smart woman, and a woman who loved God. She would not be paralyzed by offense; she would act.
I have witnessed much offense in the last few days. Not in person but over the internet and I wish that I could intervene. Through the medium of comments, people’s mouths have not been connected to their brains and there is hurt. I desperately want to bake bread and intervene.
And so this blog post – this is my offering; my “Abigail’s Bread”. In life there is a lot of offense. I offend, and I am offended. But knowing there is bread, both Abigail’s and the body of the One who died for offense is hope indeed. Today may you both give and taste Abigail’s bread; bread that offers pardon and hope.
18 Abigail acted quickly. She took two hundred loaves of bread, two skins of wine, five dressed sheep, five seahs of roasted grain, a hundred cakes of raisins and two hundred cakes of pressed figs, and loaded them on donkeys. 19 Then she told her servants, “Go on ahead; I’ll follow you.” But she did not tell her husband Nabal…..23 When Abigail saw David, she quickly got off her donkey and bowed down before David with her face to the ground. 24 She fell at his feet and said: “Pardon your servant, my lord, and let me speak to you; hear what your servant has to say……27 And let this gift, which your servant has brought to my lord, be given to the men who follow you.28 “Please forgive your servant’s presumption…..32 David said to Abigail, “Praise be to the Lord, the God of Israel, who has sent you today to meet me. 33 May you be blessed for your good judgment and for keeping me from bloodshed this day and from avenging myself with my own hands.”….35 Then David accepted from her hand what she had brought him and said, “Go home in peace. I have heard your words and granted your request.” (excerpts from 1 Samuel 25 New International Version)
I read this very passage this morning!
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That is so great Sophie! Am enjoying the Books of Samuel in a new way.
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“Blessed are the peacemakers…” Thanks for sharing this message of peace even as you attempt to advocate peace. I’m searching my own heart and adding a prayer for your efforts.
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sorry for the dupdlicate!
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No worries! I’m so glad you commented! Better to delete a duplicate than miss out on a great comment!
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Thank you so much Jennifer. It’s that sadness I feel when the outside world observes the huge and ugly fights between Christians.
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Oh thank you, Marilyn! Beautiful and uplifting and instructive! I wonder how a gift of bread would work from the one who was offended would work. A peace offering in reverse!
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An offering in reverse…excellent idea. I hope I will remember this idea next time I am in that position!
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What an amazing response to what you saw in yourself and what you see in others! Thank you (again) for sharing your soul. Through you, I learn. :) And yes – I have found internet access…on my phone. :)
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So glad you found internet access and that you are resting. Thank you for listening to my soul.
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Marilyn, Amazing. I am grateful for this story and your insight into it!
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Mary Margaret – thank you! It’s funny how you can read a story several times and it suddenly hits you in a different way. I appreciate this comment so much.
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It is making my heart sad that the bread I offered to effect reconciliation between two loved ones has been refused and a heart remains like stone!
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I too have had this…and I feel sad as I hear this. Stone cold hearts heart themselves and others. Thank you for sharing. I will pray that Abigail’s bread will work it’s miracle.
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